Saturday, September 15, 2012

A Sudden Realization


So i have been very upset in recent months about our house. There is always something wrong with it whether it is pipes leaking, toilets running, bath tub not draining, tub faucet leaking... or a million other things, there is always something. SO i was getting upset and embarrassed about our house.  My dream has always been to have a beautiful clean home where i can have people over and for them to think it looks as beautiful as i think it is :) But lately that has not been how i have been feeling about my house.
And then something hit me laying in bed something hit me.. i am 24 years old! I am only 24 years old! 24 year old people don't have big fancy houses that are perfect! they have apartments, and fix-er-up houses, and some are still living with parents or they have room mates. 

I think i was feeling that because we have two beautiful children and that we have been married for 5 years now, that my house needs to be perfect and finished like a full grown adult should have, and that i need to be this perfect mother and perfect wife and that i should have it all figured out and running smoothly by now... but in all honestly i am still only 24 years old, i still have plenty of time to get it all figured out :) Plenty of time to either fix this house up, or plenty of time to find a new one. Plenty of time to get this whole wife thing down, and plenty of time to be a great mother.
And that is my thought for the day, and just getting this realization written down and typed out make me feel like this huge weight being lifted off my shoulders, I feel more relaxed and calm and just happy at the pace that things are going in. I don't feel like I have to be a super hero, I can just be me!! :D 

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